In a world where conversations are often superficial and depth seems to be set aside, finding your voice can feel like a significant challenge. People prefer to talk about trivial things, avoiding topics that could provoke real reflection. Yet, it’s still possible to create a space where one can express themselves authentically. That’s how I feel about my blog, which I started on a whim. I don’t know where it will lead, but I know it’s the only way for me to release what’s inside me.
Difficulty Finding Someone to Listen
I know it’s hard to find someone to talk to, and it seems most people aren’t there to listen. They’re not particularly interested in you. Most people avoid deep topics of discussion. They all avoid the obvious, honesty. They prefer to chat about everything and nothing. I think that’s what makes me distant from the world. It’s that nobody really talks. Nobody says anything, except nonsense. I just want to express myself; I just want to talk, to talk honestly. Who speaks honestly? Nobody. There’s no one to do it.
Need to Express Emotions
I have too much to say, too much. People are there, twiddling their thumbs and staring at each other. I just want to express my emotions, my feelings, my passion. That’s freedom, and writing is surely the best way to express it. I could write for hours because, honestly, it’s what I enjoy most when I’m in a state of flow. I can go on like this for a long time without interruption.
Feeling of Isolation
I feel like a stranger among others. They don’t understand. My head is always spinning, my thoughts constantly surfacing, and I’m obsessed… it’s like I’m trying to relieve an inner constant discomfort. Am I the only one? Is it because I think too much? I feel that when I concentrate like this in flow while writing, or when I focus on sports, those are the only times when I really feel good. How is that possible? I don’t want to leave that feeling.
Writing as Relief
Writing brings me relief. Everyone tries to find some form of relief, whether it’s in food, drinks, sex, or entertainment. Everyone tries to escape reality in one way or another. We can’t stand it. We don’t want to be in the present moment because it’s either too “intense” or too simple for our taste. We look for something to become numb to reality. Strangely, writing allows me to return to the present in a profound way and perhaps in the best way, like when I meditate. In fact, I feel that these are the only moments that are real and worth existing. Being present. Most people are not; they’re just busy, thinking about tomorrow or the past. The only times I feel comfortable and at peace are when I’m fully focused on something that I enjoy. I think that’s the best way for me not to go crazy in this world. Otherwise, my brain looks for an escape, and I quickly turn to food.
Finding New Sources of Stimulation
For example, for a while, I didn’t know what to do, so I started spending a lot of time at the gym. The advantage is that I was able to really develop my physical strength, but it’s also because I had time to kill. Deep down, I knew I wanted to use that time to create something on the side. In the end, I can do both, go to the gym for a limited time and then write for a limited time. That way, I challenge myself by giving myself a timing I have to respect, which allows me to push my limits. For example, today I decided I was going to write one article. In the end, I wrote two. We can always go further and do more. The trick is to stop being a perfectionist and just go for it anyway. With this mindset, you can do anything and decide today to start something new; there’s really no limit.
Do not look back
I want to tell you to just go for it and not look back. I lived in my past for too long, and it held me back from taking action. I got too wrapped up in my own thoughts, focusing on what was wrong rather than all the things that were going right. If you look around, there’s a lot of positive. You’re alive, there’s sunshine (okay, sometimes it rains), and even if you feel alone, there are always neighbors around you, or even a cat crossing in front of your window. You’re never really alone. It’s just that you feel alone. Many people feel this way—I was the first. I didn’t want to admit it for a long time, but it’s a fact that I feel lonely. That’s why I started writing.
Turning Negativity into Opportunity
That’s why any situation, no matter how negative it may seem, can turn into an opportunity for you. Lost your job? It’s certainly negative at first, but you are forced to bounce back. This is where you can look for something better or start your own business. The opportunity is yours. Your boyfriend leaves you and you find yourself alone? It’s time to focus on your projects. You feel lonely? It’s an opportunity to explore your passions.
A Matter of Perception
In fact, everything is a matter of perception. You can feel like the unhappiest person in the world if you believe you are, and you’ll find all the reasons to feel miserable. Conversely, you can view things in a better light and realize how fortunate you are. For example, you can focus on something positive in the morning, which sets the tone for the rest of your day.
So, what are your sources of relief or presence? How do you find your own voice in a world that can sometimes seem silent? I’d love to hear your answers and experiences.